I've never been impressed by your friends from New York and London.

It makes me sad.
It makes me sad knowing that in a years time, we're all going to be split up and onto University.
It makes me sad that Christmas seems ages away.
It makes me sad that there's no new series' of Gavin and Stacey.
It makes me sad that George Orwell shot an elephant.
It makes me sad that Clare is always waiting for Henry.
It makes me sad when people leave their bathroom lights on in the day.
It makes me sad that people insist on saying 'Omnomnom' even though they're seventeen years of age.
It makes me sad knowing you don't feel the same.
That I'll never hold you.

You know what... I need to shut the hell up. It's not helping anything.

I want to be famous.
It annoys me that celebrities moan about cameras being shoved in their faces and the paparazzi are following them. Do you know what? I would actually love that. Its not even the money aspect. I would like to be famous even if there wasn't any money involved.
I like being noticed.
I like being talked about.
I like people hating me.
I like being opinionated.
I like getting up people's noses and in people's faces.
I may have said this before, but everything I do is tailored to shock and is well thought out to gain a reaction out of people. Nine point nine times out of ten... it works.

And I fucking love it.

Standing in the way of control.

I think I'm just going to admit defeat and move on.
There's nothing I can do that will help the situation.

I really don't like the Mars advert.
You know the one with the monks. Monk music scares me, so when it comes on (especially at night) I get all scared. I'm such a wierdo!

I'm definatley going to start using this again to rant and shiz. I'm just not in the mood at the moment.

All the single ladies.

Wow. That hurt.
A lot.


Its not like I can expect you to put your life on hold...

This is a song for all my close friends.

I thought 'getting over you' would be easy.
It really isn't. I knew nothing was promised when it all came out but I'm finding it really hard to forget about you. I always think about you. You get more beautiful every day. I look forward to seeing you in lessons, which is weird. I'm sorry this is such a lengthy thing... I really didn't intend on making your life a hundred times harder than it is. I'm shit.

I don't want to grow up.
I don't want to go to University yet. I like things the way they are. I'm terribly happy at the minute. I don't want it to end. I'm comfortable at the moment. I don't want things to change, thanks.

Omnomnomnom.
I hate people that use the above expression. Like seriously, grow the fuck up. It makes me physically cringe when I see people using it. I don't see how it makes sense or even how it serves a purpose. Please stop, you annoy me you vile 'nomming' creatures. It even makes me cringe to type it. Eep...

I'm also loving 'The Ordinary Boys' again, like I did in Year Nine. 'I Luv You', 'Boys Will Be Boys' and 'Lonely At The Top' are my personal favourites.

Exx dee.

Je te plumerai la tete.

Deep down, I actually thought the whole thing would work out.
I'm so stupid.
It's great that we can still be friends.
Its ridiculous I thought anything would happen.

ANYWHOOO!
Today was rather fun. Me and Fyona went to meet Jodi and Lewis and had a good afternoon. Even though I went to punch Lewis and hit his elbow. That hurt. Then me and Fyona went to a gig with Rachel and Danny G. The band actually turned out to be better than I once thought. I expected some dirty screamo crap that I just can't stand but surprsingly it was good, got everyones hips moooving.

You know what... is should really do some graphics work or begin reading my English books...

EEP.

You can't play on broken strings.

Well that was a fail.
I hate being let down. I know you can't help it and I want to thank you for being so patient with me. Most people would have just either ignored me or fallen out with me.

But anyway.
This week has been brilliant. I gained my grades from my AS courses, I was actually quite happy with them. At the weekend there was various parties. Alana's on Friday which involved me dancing all night to different party tunes like Saturday Night and Cha Cha Slide. I'm so cool. Then there was Chris' on the Saturday, which involved me almost making two people throw up from the delightful cocktail I created which included the following:

- Vodka
- Chicken Legs
- Sausages
- Black Food Colouring
- Peppermint
- Sea Salt
- Pepper
- 100s and 1000s
- Chocolate
- Orange Juice
- Milk
- Parsley

There's definatley more stuff which I can't remember. But yeah, sounds tasty doesn't it?



At the end of the day, I know things didn't work out but at least I have my friends.

Got to keep on dancing, keep on dancing.

Summer 2010 has been epic!
I've actually had such a blast this summer. Whether its chilling on a field, at a party, going cinema or anything alike it's been great and I've enjoyed it all. I've also met some amaxing people. And guess what, theres still another three weeks to go. WOO-EE!